purged

I had this dream, there was a black head next to my heart and I went into a bathroom to pop it and as I started to, it begun to grow and grow and all this puss came out, around it was black and it looked like toothpaste coming out of a tube... and then the hole kept getting bigger and string started to come out too and then the string was gauze and the gauze had a bit of blood on it and after I see this blue gloves stained coming out too. I paint with blue gloves... I decided at that point to push the gloves and the gauze back inside, I cut the string and I went to my friend and asked her how I was suppose to sew the hole... 

woke up

I have a lot of weird dreams but this one really made me feel purged, released... 

a lot of wounds are still open but I'm closing them one at a time... I have the things that help me live and feel alive.  I love living in NY, I love facing myself and seeing it raw...  

I know where I'm going and is up.  *}